Can I get any dumber?

Today's thoughts

Meh.. What a day.. Can't really tell if it's good or not.. Severe mood swings driving me completely insane! No wait! I am actually insane! The chemicals in my brain are not right! Oh well.. How sad!

* I'm so out of it!!!

* I ate like a monster.. Gosh I hate doing that..

* Well apparently my brain's not functioning! I can't focus or even come up with the right words.. Sucks..

* Ok screw this I dun haev any friggin thoughts coz I can barely think!!!

Kill me please.

So what if u actually love me??
Am I supposed to be so happy??

It's weird the way some ppl think..

I haven't wrote anything in months.. God.. I'm dead inside.. I can't take all this pressure anymore..

Why was I born?

So.. Let's face it, I'm broke, lonely even though I've someone that adores me, misunderstood, frustrated, depressed.. I can keep going.. Describing my misery..

Believe it or not, dying right now wouldn't harm anyone! On the contrary, a lot of ppl would be happy n feel much better once I'm gone.. At least mom wouldn't have to worry about the money anymore..

I got no reason to live.. I want to die..

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I feel so lonely.. More than ever..

I actually feel so hollow for some reason.. I'm sick of this, need a way out, or a way back into my real life.. A ticket to salvation, whatever & wherever it is..

I want to cry but I can't. I can't because I don't want others to see me this weak..

Don't know what to say, words have betrayed me this time..

Pissed off like there's no tomorrow

I don't get it.. I just don't fucking get it.. What the fuck is wrong with you?????
Are you senseless? Spiritless? Emotionless? Or just frigging stupid???
Because I am going insane.. Basically I'm getting even more disappointed and questioning and doubting myself.. Do I have a trace of regret?! I SURE DO!

Seriously, what are you made of?! I believe it's wood, not blood and flesh.

You were created when stupidity and insensitivity were mixed together.. What a great blend!

I hate you, I really do..

Why on earth are you doing this to me.. Why? Just give me a god damn reason.. And if I should let things go their way or go with the flow, then I will.. If you want it to happen then I'll save you the effort of telling me.. Of hurting me even more..

Thank you for everything you've done.. Thank you for sabotaging my life.