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I feel so lonely.. More than ever..

I actually feel so hollow for some reason.. I'm sick of this, need a way out, or a way back into my real life.. A ticket to salvation, whatever & wherever it is..

I want to cry but I can't. I can't because I don't want others to see me this weak..

Don't know what to say, words have betrayed me this time..

Pissed off like there's no tomorrow

I don't get it.. I just don't fucking get it.. What the fuck is wrong with you?????
Are you senseless? Spiritless? Emotionless? Or just frigging stupid???
Because I am going insane.. Basically I'm getting even more disappointed and questioning and doubting myself.. Do I have a trace of regret?! I SURE DO!

Seriously, what are you made of?! I believe it's wood, not blood and flesh.

You were created when stupidity and insensitivity were mixed together.. What a great blend!

I hate you, I really do..

Why on earth are you doing this to me.. Why? Just give me a god damn reason.. And if I should let things go their way or go with the flow, then I will.. If you want it to happen then I'll save you the effort of telling me.. Of hurting me even more..

Thank you for everything you've done.. Thank you for sabotaging my life.

Stepping stone..

Mistaken again..

Another stepping stone on my way to "happiness".. It's quite funny that everytime I think someone understands, I'd be turned down.. To my inner self who keeps telling me that no one understands shit.. That no one would understand my insanity, my sensitivity, my complexes but most importantly; ME.

But I just have to give it a shot each time, because I never lose hope. I'm not a very optimistic person, but I am hopeful when it comes to this. Because I did find that one person who took it all in and accepted it.. But how ironic that I lost that person, I let them go.. How pathetic..

I might be on my way to misanthropy!

This can't be true though, there's gotta be more than this..

The more I get disappointed the more I'm hurt.. And no, nobody sees my inner wounds & scars because they're too blind and ignorant to notice anything.. And I am not one to speak..

Can it get more fucked up?!

I guess I shall live with the regret of letting you go.. I wonder if you know how I feel though, because after all, you know me better than anyone, you see right through me in a magical way.

I just want to be free.. I want to get out of this quod..

I think I should not trust people that much, or believe in them, and maybe then I wouldn't be so spiritless and grim!