It's been 10 months..

I'm in love..
As scary as that sounds.. As weird as that sounds or even as cliche as that sounds..
But I really am..

Several questions pop in my head:
Why YOU????
What's so special about you???
Why can't I get you off my mind no matter how hard I try.. Why are you always my first thought when I wake up and the last one before I sleep.. My heart skips a beat when I think of you, well basically all I can do right now is just think about/of you.. 24/7.. You make me smile, you make me cry, you make me happy, you make me sad, you make mad & angry but I'm still soooo into you..
And I know I shouldn't.. This love is wrong but I can't help it, I have seriously tried to not love you, to even hate you but I ended up loving you more.. I don't know how this is going to end, but hopefully no tragedies..

I try to talk about anything with you just for conversation's sake, just for the sake of looking into your eyes and listening to your voice.. And just watching you.. In front of me.. Talking to me..

"Ever since I saw your face,
Nothing in my life has been the same..
I walk around just saying your name,
Without you my world would end.."

Quoted from a stupid, silly pop song :P but I love those 4 lines..

You have no idea about all the feelings I have for you.. And it hurts because I don't even exist in your world, I'm just... Someone...

It's silly, the way I always picture you whenever I listen to a cheesy love song..

I truly and deeply love you..

I read your texts over and over again.. Unbelieving you actually sent them!! Because anything related to YOU is so precious to ME..

Your name makes my heart melt.. Just the sound of it sends me to another planet.. I Google it about ten times a day just for the sake of typing it.. I write it whenever I'm holding a pen.. I even wrote it on the back of my final exam's paper XD and guess what, it brought me luck!

All I want.. Is to be with you, and be loved by you..

You complete me, you are without a doubt my first true love that no matter what happens I'll always remember and cherish..

I realize that my feelings will probably go wasted and that we don't even have a chance together.. But I can't help but to fall for you.. It is out of my hands my love.. So out of my hands..

No one understands why I love you, no one knows how special, awesome & outstanding you are.. How beautiful inside/out, gracious & charming.. But I am blessed to know all of this and even more.. I am blessed to know you.. And even if we never end up together, you must know that you will always mean a whole lot to me.. Always and forever..

I love you <3