Get out of my head please!

I gotta stop reading your messages and texts god damn it!
You are invading my brain, you took over my world.. I can't stop thinking about it.. It's a fact.. And it's hard for me to admit it, but it's true..

I love you..

All I want.. Is to look in your eyes and tell you how I feel about you, knowing and being certain that it wouldn't ruin anything we already have.. Though we have almost nothing left.. I don't even know if you consider me a friend anymore.. But god.. I want you to be mine.. Mine only..

You keep keep me up at night.. I daydream about you during the day.. You are occupying me..
You are haunting me, haunting my thoughts, my dreams, my whole world..
I don't know what to do anymore..

I don't know if I should try and let you go.. Try to forget you and kick you out of my system..
Or give it a shot, a risky shot and tell you how I truly feel about you..
I do realize that I'll end up losing you if I ever tell you the truth, but then.. I hate holding back..

I love you.. With all my heart.. I'm in love with you.. Madly in love with you..

Hatred coming out of love

I hate you.


Actually I love you.
But I hate you because you aren't mine. I hate you for not knowing how much I love you. I hate you for loving someone else. And I hate that someone else.
I hate you because you're mad at me for no good reason.. It might seem like a good reason to you, but once you hear my side of the story, understand the reason behind everything, you'll regret all the time you wasted..

I dream of you every single night.. I dream of us together.. All I want is one shot.. Just one chance.. Let me show you how much I care..

All I have to say is.. I adore you...

Yet another confession

Why is it so easy for you to upset me?
More like.. Why do I easily get upset?

I know the answer but I'm afraid to admit it..
I'm afraid to admit it coz maybe I dun want it to be true..
And I dun want it to be true coz.. I won't get anything out of it basically.. So there's no point..

I noticed that my latest posts were very short n that's because I've been speechless for the last few weeks.. Words betrayed me.. Again..

All I know is that I can't see myself without you.. All I know is that I need u in my life..

And I know.. I just know.. That I love u.

Pain pain pain.. Endless pain..

My heart.. Is hurt.. I'm in serious pain.. Physically and emotionally.. I think the emotional pain is gradually growing into a physical one.. And I wish I can die right now.. I don't want to suffer anymore.. I don't want to be strong or tough because there's absolutely no reason to do that..

Somebody do me a favor n kill me..

Last hope is gone

I should be happy for u..
But I'm not..
How can I be?!

Lately.. I've been crying myself to sleep.. And it's basically, because of u..

I'm just wondering, how come everything/one I want/love fade to black? Why???
I'm losing it all..