Yet, another day..
*Same shit, different day!*
I'm at the uni righ now, my exam will start in 2 hours & 30 minutes..
I didn't study well yesterday, first there was that huge note that I didn't understand (n I still dun get it) and then I got bored n ufff, I hate to study..I just read the notes..
Though I still have one more note to read, but I dun think I'm in the mood 2 do anything right now..The worst thing, is that I haven't slept all night..
And yeah ok, it's starting to be my life style now, staying up for more than 35 hours every once in a while..But damn I'm tired!! :/
And I know that I dun have to do it..But I just do it anyway..In both cases I'm wasting time, whether I slept or not..
So yeah apart from that..I'm ok..[I guess]..
Gosh When I think of myself, of who I really am..I wonder if someone will ever love me, n I mean love me forever..Coz I tend to push away all the ones that loves me, n I've been pretty good at that lately!! :(
I dunno y I've to mess things up everytime they're perfect..It's just killing me..
I miss Hiba..Terribly..
I just, need to talk to her..I want her to be in my life..
Mom told me the other day (or maybe I should use the word "screamed") that I'm just like my father, n maybe she's right..I am like him..
But I dun mind, at least it's better than being like her..
Actually, I hate my entire family, so it duzn really matter..
I'm glad I've this blog to write in it every now n then..Coz I haven't touched my real notebook since god knows when, I guess I no longer like to 'write'..Typing seems easier :P
So what else?!
Hmm..For some weird reason, I feel like I wanna keep on writing forever, I just dun wanna end this post..It's sorta cool though, coz I've nothin else to do..
Rabih asked me yesterday about the scars I have on my arm..I must admit, my heart was beating really fast when he looked at me n simply asked me bout em, but I think I managed to stay calm n look cool, n just lie to him about it..
Well, I am a good liar, I mean I always know what 2 say & how 2 say it..But I'm glad that I no longer lie too much..Lying sucks..
I'm in a bad need for some loud & heavy music right now..Music is my anti-drug..
It's really cold at the moment :S
And I'm deadly bored..
If only u knew,
How much I love u..
Tonight, it all ends..It's just over..
Forever me & forever you..
*Same shit, different day!*
I'm at the uni righ now, my exam will start in 2 hours & 30 minutes..
I didn't study well yesterday, first there was that huge note that I didn't understand (n I still dun get it) and then I got bored n ufff, I hate to study..I just read the notes..
Though I still have one more note to read, but I dun think I'm in the mood 2 do anything right now..The worst thing, is that I haven't slept all night..
And yeah ok, it's starting to be my life style now, staying up for more than 35 hours every once in a while..But damn I'm tired!! :/
And I know that I dun have to do it..But I just do it anyway..In both cases I'm wasting time, whether I slept or not..
So yeah apart from that..I'm ok..[I guess]..
Gosh When I think of myself, of who I really am..I wonder if someone will ever love me, n I mean love me forever..Coz I tend to push away all the ones that loves me, n I've been pretty good at that lately!! :(
I dunno y I've to mess things up everytime they're perfect..It's just killing me..
I miss Hiba..Terribly..
I just, need to talk to her..I want her to be in my life..
Mom told me the other day (or maybe I should use the word "screamed") that I'm just like my father, n maybe she's right..I am like him..
But I dun mind, at least it's better than being like her..
Actually, I hate my entire family, so it duzn really matter..
I'm glad I've this blog to write in it every now n then..Coz I haven't touched my real notebook since god knows when, I guess I no longer like to 'write'..Typing seems easier :P
So what else?!
Hmm..For some weird reason, I feel like I wanna keep on writing forever, I just dun wanna end this post..It's sorta cool though, coz I've nothin else to do..
Rabih asked me yesterday about the scars I have on my arm..I must admit, my heart was beating really fast when he looked at me n simply asked me bout em, but I think I managed to stay calm n look cool, n just lie to him about it..
Well, I am a good liar, I mean I always know what 2 say & how 2 say it..But I'm glad that I no longer lie too much..Lying sucks..
I'm in a bad need for some loud & heavy music right now..Music is my anti-drug..
It's really cold at the moment :S
And I'm deadly bored..
If only u knew,
How much I love u..
Tonight, it all ends..It's just over..
Forever me & forever you..
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