Protect me..

Protect me from what I want..

Why do ppl like me, love to hurt themselves?! Isn't it enough that we get hurt by others?!
Or is pain our drug?!
I cannot take this anymore..
I tried 2 put it all behind me, but obviously, what I was tryin to do didn't really work out..

Though I think, I feed on pain & hurt..But..It seems as if its only breaking me down, n destroying me..
I feed on my self-destruction..

Protect me from what I want..

I wasn't like this, I was someone else..
I was a human back then..A real human..

I wish I could go back to what I was like..That old me..
I just wanna break free of my current-self..It's unbearable..

Numb..

Protect me from what I want..

Is it too much to be asked?!
I only wanna be protected from what I want..From myself..

I'm askin for salvation..For freedom..

Confusion's covering me..It's making me blind, I'm just lacking discernment..
Won't u guide me?! I'm waiting 4 u..

Protect me from what I want..
Protect me please..